Simple, just don't let it.

Lauren:  I was just thinking about this yesterday, how life is just flashing before my eyes. I worry that i am going to forget the really great moments and memories of my past. I am scared of it actually. I really don't want to forget. especially summer 2008. That was the prime of my life this far. I am so worried that it is going to just all go by so fast and i am going to regret not living life to its full potential. Everyone said that this is actually the best years of your life but they never told me to live slowly and take it all in. Help me to do that okay? remind me. i love and miss you babes.

Kenzie: I'll sure do my best! thats what i'm trying to do too! so you help me too! i keep finding myself thinking back on the past and dont get me wrong, i love, LOVE how my life is now, but i seriously would give anything to go back and relive everything. make me start writing in a journal. please. cause i really wish i would've now because, like you, i'm terrified of forgetting the past. sure, i remember big moments. but its the little moments that count. and those are the ones that are harder to remember forever. i miss you so so much. best friends forever? i love you ♥

Heartfelt feelings through a facebook message, shared between two lifelong friends.

Beauty In simplicity

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   Find Joy and Beauty in the simplest of things....Stop and smell the roses.

"be soft, do not let the world make you hard. Do not let the pain make you hate. Do not let the bitterness steal your sweetness. Take pride that even though the rest of the world may disagree, you still believe it to be a beautiful place."

The most Perfect.

Let me tell you right quick a few things that I want.. you know, just off the top of my head. 

first and foremost, I WANT MY EARS TO POP! colds are the worst...


       
         I want my room to magically always be clean. Fairy godmother..maybe?
I want to be content, even when I am unhappy, even when the going gets rough.


I want to be the one in control of where I am going to end up, You know, when someone calls me lovely wifey.


                    I want a boyfriend...I do. I run the risk of Jinxing it, I am admitting it.


I always always want to feel like I am where I belong. Where I can do the most good for the world, and where I can grow., quickly,  while taking my time. like a weed.

I want to have a baby, maybe one with a disability, not now, not real soon, but someday. Future someday.

I want September to come, when I am the most perfect version of myself.


                                   I want to swallow my pride. Suck it up and do what is right. 


I want to wake up earlier. Rise early and do good things.

       I want to keep my promises. To myself , just as much as  I strive to do for you. 

I want to eat healthier. get in shape and be confident about wheat I see in the mirror.
I want to like running. Not feel like I am going to pass out cold when I have only gone a couple blocks.


        I want to volunteer, Have a real live true passion for it.




Yikes.  I want lots...

"Theres a right way to live and be happy, it is choosing the right every day"

A Little Bit Stronger

   "I could 

have been 

another minute late, 

and you never 

would have

crossed my path

that day"

...oh how that would have changed everything now that you mean so much to me...

Nothing to offer me.

I have been truly blessed with fantastic intuition.  I know right from wrong, I know who cares about me and who doesn't, I know when I am over stepping my boundaries, and most of all to know where I belong.  

     The day that I came down to provo, I knew that that is where I needed  and was going to go to school, I never thought I would go home again, I was upset when I practically had the decision made for me to go home for summer, but although completely different than my Provo world, I love it. I belong there right now. I have spent the past two weekends here in Provo, for one reason or another...because I missed this life, but both times I have come I have felt so unwelcome.  Unfortunately, I don't even feel welcome in my own apartment which was once a place i called my house. Tonight I realized, that my Provo life is never going to be the same. Chapters of life close all the time but this one is gone, this one is lost and can only be seen as a memory of a word-win of emotions, trail of patience, love and lust, drama and confusion. I know that now, I respect that because I would never take back the times I had. I need to find myself more and more and I can not do that here. Not right now. I am grateful for the ability to know that. 

Someday...

Dream House